Thursday, January 15, 2009


moonlight carves a shadow
my dreams take wing
the wind whispers once more
the heart can sing

Tuesday, January 06, 2009

99 things

Things you’ve already done: bold = 34

Things you want to do: italicize = 39

Things you haven’t done and don’t want to - leave in plain font = 26

1. Started your own blog.

2. Slept under the stars. (And shivered!)

3. Played in a band. (Yes, it was a band, honest!)

4. Visited Hawaii.

5. Watched a meteor shower.

6. Given more than you can afford to charity. (Now why would anyone do that? But let me try.)

7. Been to Disneyland/world. (I've been to all sorts of lands and am kinda tired of them. I'll try slumberland any day though :) )

8. Climbed a mountain. (Love to do that a lot.)

9. Held a praying mantis. (Yes, in those days I did not know what it was that I was holding, ugh!)

10. Sang a solo. (Yeah,its always solo in the bath, isn't it?)

11. Bungee jumped.

12. Visited Paris. (Oooh! I so want to be there.)

13. Watched a lightning storm at sea. (But not be in the middle of one for sure.)

14. Taught yourself an art from scratch. (Collage)

15. Adopted a child. (Nice idea, but I am not sure I'll pass. One child cannot adopt another.)

16. Had food poisoning. (Not a nice idea.)

17. Walked to the top of the Statue of Liberty. (and do what??)

18. Grown your own vegetables.

19. Seen the Mona Lisa in France. (Yes, when I go to Paris.)

20. Slept on an overnight train. (All the time. You do that often in this part of the world.)

21. Had a pillow fight. (Plenty, and got a hiding afterwards from folks.)

22. Hitch hiked. (Worth considering!)

23. Taken a sick day when you’re not ill. (Tee hee!)

24. Built a snow fort.(Sounds fun!)

25. Held a lamb. (Yes, and I've a pict to prove it.)

26. Gone skinny dipping. (No way!)

27. Run a marathon. (Yes and plan to run more.)

28. Ridden a gondola in Venice. (With someone special.)

29. Seen a total eclipse. (YES!!!)

30. Watched a sunrise or sunset. (Of course, everyone has.)

31. Hit a home run. (I'm Indian, we hit sixes and fours, not home runs.)

32. Been on a cruise. (Hmmm, I can't wait)

33. Seen Niagara Falls in person. (What lovely falls but what a crappy town!)

34. Visited the birthplace of your ancestors. (I'm sitting on it.)

35. Seen an Amish community. (Wouldn't know where to look, but let me try.)

36. Taught yourself a new language. (I presume my school and college French counts.)

37.Had enough money to be truly satisfied. (Can I italicize that twice over?)

38. Seen the Leaning Tower of Pisa in person.

39. Gone rock climbing. (Several times and can't wait for the next opportunity.)

40. Seen Michelangelo’s David in person. (What big hands you have David, said Little Red Riding hood)

41. Sung Karaoke. (Eh!)

42. Seen Old Faithful geyser erupt. (Huh?)

43. Bought a stranger a meal in a restaurant. (Hope someone on their list of 99 does that for this stranger too)

44. Visited Africa. (Closest I've got is Mauritius, plan to go further)

45. Walked on a beach by moonlight. (With a littoral area as big as India's I'm sure everyone will do this once in their lifetime.)

46. Been transported in an ambulance. (Yes, but never as the patient and I want to keep it that way)

47. Had your portrait painted. (Don't like to be photographed therefore no sketching either.)

48. Gone deep sea fishing. (Hmm.. sounds interesting, and then cook the fresh catch?)

49. Seen the Sistine chapel in person. (Yes, there will be this big art appreciation trip which will take me to Italy, France and England)

50. Been to the top of the Eiffel Tower in Paris.(During that aforementioned trip)

51. Gone scuba diving or snorkelling. (Neither, but have done a sea walk with a upside down belljar like thingy on my head and it weighed a ton!)

52. Kissed in the rain. (So that the wet kiss is wetter still??)

53. Played in the mud. (Heaps, both mud and played :P)

54. Gone to a drive-in theater.

55. Been in a movie. (Assorted videos yes, many times, but not a proper movie. Let's just say that I am meant to be on the other side of the camera :) )

56. Visited the Great Wall of China. (A must do!)

57. Started a business. (ON my mind).

58. Taken a martial arts class. (You are talking to a Red belt in Judo, careful there)

59. Visited Russia. St Petersberg.( And also the Kremlin)

60. Served at a soup kitchen. (Langar is the Indian equivalent of a ...faint chance)

61. Sold Girl Scout cookies. (I am better at polishing them off)

62. Gone whale watching. (I've done penguins, dolphins...want to add sharks)

63. Gotten flowers for no reason. (Choo Chweet...some one out there listening?)

64. Donated blood. (A whole 1.5 liters of it over several occasions)

65. Gone sky diving. (Came really close to doing it in Chicago....waiting for the next opportunity)

66. Visited a Nazi Concentration Camp. (Intend to do this.)

67. Bounced a check. (3 times actually when the amount in numbers and figures did not match, *sheepish *)

68. Flown in a helicopter.

69. Saved a favorite childhood toy. (Several and they have survived several threats to being disposed off.)

70. Visited the Lincoln Memorial.

71. Eaten Caviar. (Might try it once.)

72. Pieced a quilt. (My mum did it for me and I hope to do it for someone else, at least put together the design that is.)

73. Stood in Times Square. (Want to do it at least once to feel the sheer energy that accumulates in that place.)

74. Toured the Everglades. (And where would they be? England I suppose.)

75. Been fired from a job.

76. Seen the Changing of the Guard in London. (Oh! I must make that trip)

77. Broken a bone. (My little toe and the toe next to it. Still simmers in the winters)

78. Been on a speeding motorcycle. (Have motorcycle, will speed.)

79. Seen the Grand Canyon in person.(Maybe a trip to the Americas is also in order.)

80. Published a book. (It's in the works :P)

81. Visited the Vatican. (When in Italy..)

82. Bought a brand new car. (Yes...on the anvil..wishlist..whatever)

83. Walked in Jerusalem.

84. Had your picture in the newspaper. (Yeah! They put in my pic and my opinion.)

85. Read the entire Bible.

86. Visited the White House. (Not by a mile.)

87. Killed and prepared an animal for eating. (Might try that with crabs.)

88. Had chickenpox. (As a kid, yes.)

89. Saved someone’s life. (Not that I am itching to, but it would be nice. Nicer, if I come out unscathed)

90. Sat on a jury.(No can do here)

91. Met someone famous. (Hmmm..let me see....meanwhile people who have met me please say yes to this one)

92. Joined a book club. (Sounds interesting!)

93. Lost a loved one. (My grandparents)

94. Had a baby. (huh?)

95. Seen the Alamo in person.

96. Swum in the Great Salt Lake. (More like floated in the GSL.)

97. Been involved in a law suit. (Let's keep it that way.)

98. Owned a cell phone. (3 so far and counting.)

99. Been stung by a bee. (Almost, but the fellow went after someone jucier :) )

Monday, January 05, 2009

Saying little...

One month a few years ago, had been particularly taxing. I had been grappling with some work related issues for the past few weeks. A client refused to be held to the scope of a project I was initiating and insisted on a build-as we progress approach. In my attempt to get started well, I refused to proceed without a scope and thus we were locked in a diplomatic war of words. Since apparently no work was getting done, my manager stepped in. Now, this manager then not being the support-and-get-out-of-my-way kinds, made matters worse. I threw cautions to the wind, and I made the mistake of making this a personal matter. So much so that every step I took brought me closer to loosing it. Why was I letting myself be cornered into agreeing to something I knew was flawed right at the outset? All I could do was think of my team who hung on to my every word and was loyal to the core. I could not understand what ailed me...why was I practicing this kind of brinkmanship? This was definitely the riskiest approaches in the scenario, since my worth is entirely driven by how much my team manages to deliver.

Before I could reach a stage where enough was enough, I took a breather. I pushed away everything for a couple of days, went into a no-response mode. I sat in Holmes like concentration running everything through my head, info-byte by info-byte. In that state of mind I actually distanced myself from the situation at the workplace. I had made this too personal, involved my id and ego in it. I had to snip the tethers, let the ship stray from the port. To cut the long story short, I realised that if I am composed enough, I can help how I perceive the most hard nosed and dull headed clients. I can strategise, anticipate and lay traps (wicked, wicked) to make things work my way. During this whole time saying as little as possible helps. The virtues of a meaningful silence can be found in every alternate wave in the sea of self help guides and books. Except for rare life or death situations NOTHING is as important as it first seems except you and your priorities. Deep down I knew I was right in asking for what I was asking and this state of mind helped me be doubly sure:). I am sure there is a name and a discovery attached to this state I had stumbled upon. Its ok, I am not eager to find out.

For no other thing but this, I have that ass of a client and an interfering manager to thank. And for inspiring this this post I have A's post to thank. :)

# 25 year new horizons
autumn leaves fall freely
the dark devils of decline
submit to exuberance meekly........